Few days until Neuro app.

Yep just a few more days until my neurology appointment. It will be the second one I've had since being diagnosed in my first one back in November. I'm getting more and more nervous. I have been waiting for what seems like years for this one. During my first appointment I was told I would have a follow up one, one month from then which means I should have had an appointment at the beginning of December. 

I'm scared to be honest. I don't know what to expect and have soooo many questions. But on the otherhand I'm strangely looking forward to it. Maybe it's the prospect of some answers.. maybe a little progress? Everything has taken so long and for now I just feel like I was told I had Epilepsy given some drugs and left to it. No further tests. Nothing. Despite being told I would have tests, seizures getting worse rather then better and ending up in hospital on various occasions! To actually speak to someone in the medical profession face to face would be quite a relief I should think. I do know the neurologist I will be seeing actually specialises in Epilepsy though which is good to know!

I'm supposed to be back home now and about to sneak into a university lecture (despite me suspending my studies...)  but I was so tired last night and that coupled with my worrying about this appointment plus with a little encouragement from my mum I decided to stay here for a couple more days :) So pottering around on the farm helping out with the animals in the sunshine is my plan for the next couple of days. It's already doing the world of good! 

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